Looking for Beta Readers or Crit partners!

Hi!

You know this moment when your novel is written, you did the first round of edits and then you look at all those pages and can't find what to do more by yourself?

It's what I feel right now. I'm French and even if I know my english is not that bad, I don't have the american slang that could make the difference. I need to improve my novel, my writing style and see if there are plot holes in my novel. But now, I can't do it all by myself.

So here I am, looking everywhere for beta readers and/or crit partners for Mixed Up Feelings.

If you have some experience in beta reading or as a crit partner it's even better but I'd be delighted to talk with you a little no matter what if you are interested to help me with my novel.

You can contact me by email stephanie.witter.author (at) gmail (dot) com

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What About A Playlist?

Hi!

I don't know how it works for you, but I need some music when I write. It always helps me to be in the good mood, to have some rhythm for a scene and to just feel what I'm writing. I can't function without music.

So, I don't know if you want to know a part of my playlist - not all because there're 138 songs in it - for when I wrote Mixed Up Feelings but I want to share it with you.

* Crash by Sum 41
* Never Let You Go by Third Eye Blind
* Longest Night by Howie Day
* Collide by Howie Day
* Best Of You by Foo Fighters
* Boys Don't Cry by The Cure
* Should I Stay Or Should I Go by The Clash
* The Truth by Good Charlotte
* I Saw by Matt Nathanson
* By Your Side by Tenth Avenue North
* We Are Young by Fun.
* SING by My Chemical Romance
* Cancer by My Chemical Romance
* Just The Way I'm Not by All Time Low
* Sick Little Games by All Time Low
* I Hate Everything About You by Three Days Grace
* Last Kiss Goodbye by Hinder

That's all for now. Otherwise, there're also some Jeff Buckley's songs, Civil Wars' songs, Saving Abel's Green Day's, Muse's and so on. According to deezer, my playlist is 8 hours and 49 minutes long.

I'd love to know what you're listenning when you're writing.

See you soon!

Last Chapter!

Hi!

Today, I'm about to write the last chapter of Mixed Up Feelings. It's exhilirating and also a little frightening. I'm about to finish the first draft which is a big step, but now I've got to edit several times my novel before anybody can read it. And I'm sure I'm going to want to kill my characters in revenge just because I'm aware of the huge amount of work there is awaiting me.

Don't get me wrong, it's wonderful to be at this step, but it's also stressful. I'm afraid to be disappointed by this first draft, I'm afraid to not recognize the story that was only in my head. So, to put it in a few words, I'm a nervous wreck even when I should only celebrate this big step.

On my schedule, I'm going to write this last chapter and then read the first chapter of the novel because I never read it after I wrote it. I already know that I have to rewrite several parts of this one but it's something I was planning from the begining. After that, I think I'll wait a little, have a little break for my come back at work and begin to seriously torture my first draft.

And you, have you so mixed up feelings when you're about to finish a first draft? Are you also relentless and yet a little sad to put an end to your characters' story?

Tell me everything!

See you soon.

Am I A Freak?

Hi guys!

Today, I'm wondering something.

Am I a freak?

You must be wondering where this comes from but it's something I was wondering earlier today when I had to write a really difficult scene that takes place in a hospital and somehow, I began to cry in front of my computer's screen! Just like that.

At least, it means that I'm really involved in my story but seriously, isn't a little too much?

And now that I'm about to finish this chapter - the fourteenth - I'm all delighted by the drama that's quite more important than I previously planned. I'm all smile and I even laughed when I finished to write this difficult scene and read it to be sure it's working.

So, I'm a freak or we're all losing it when we write. Just kidding.

Fortunately, nobody witness my mood swings but it's even hard for me to follow sometimes, so imagine for somebody else.

In fact, I think I tend to open up for all kind of emotions and feelings when I write just to be able to put it in my writing for it to sound ''real'' or at the least for it to not suck too much.

On another note, I'm almost at 70k words! Right now I love all my characters, I'm proud of my writing day that's not too bad for once and I can't wait to finish this first draft. Then I'll be able to really tell you what it's all about and even post a couple of teasers for you to meet Alexane, Zack and Az for starter.

Today, I listened to Saving Abel to help me to focus on my writing and it helped. I'll post soon my playlist for Mixed Up Feelings.

Later!

Reading Is A Real Help

Hi guys!

I don't know if you often read advices from published authors (indie authors and traditional authors) but there's often one thing that comes back each and every time. READ.

Before I didn't understand this. I mean, I'm an eager reader and can't stay away from a novel even if my life was at stake, but I couldn't see how it could help somebody in the crazy adventure of writing a book. But now I understand.

Granted, I'm not sure to ever be able to publish anything, but I do write and I'm facing hard times like everybody who wants to write. One days, words are flowing and it's just AWESOME. Other days, not so much.

Let's take yesterday. I painfully wrote 500 words. 500 words! It's ridiculous and it was really hard just to write one simple sentence. I was angry at myself and decided to just pick a book and read to change my mind. And today, just like that, after I read a heartbreaking and bittersweet novel I wrote 1000 words in no time.

In fact, reading helps me to remember why I want so much to write and why I need it. It's a roller coaster and that's probably why I like it so much. Reading makes me dream, makes me want to share stories with other people.

But reading is also a tool to understand what works and doesn't work in a novel. How can we expect to write something just like that without research on the genre you decide to write or the age you're targetting? I don't think it's possible.

So, yes sometimes it's good to take a step away from your computer and just read a good book. Then, this urge to ''see'' your characters is there once again and you won't budge from your screen.

If you're having a hard time with your writing, share it with me. We can probably bitch together. ;)

Writing About Feelings

Hi guys!

Writing is difficult. I know, it's not the discovery of the century but it is a fact that I begin to understand more and more.

Writing about feelings is so difficult that I always doubt myself. You can show how your characters are suffering all you want but if your readers - yeah, in fact I think about potential readers in the future if I'm being lucky - don't feel or identify themselves to your characters, it means that your story is just a succession of words. That's the most difficult part for me.

While I find descriptions quite easy and fun to write, true feelings like angryness, sadness, hurt, happyness, excitement, lust or doubt are hard to show in words. It's like it's often too much or too little while in fact, I don't know yet if it's any good or not. Being the only judge is a nightmare sometimes.

But don't get me wrong, I love to write. Yesterday I was so lost in my chapter twelve that I didn't see the time flowing by. I wanted to feel what my main characters' doubts feel like. But was it a success?

I don't know because I never go back to read what I just wrote. I want to wait the finishing point of the first draft to go back and read all the novel and begin to see how awful it really is. It prevents me of any procrastination. I'm eager to read the novel in its complete form and it boosts me quite well.

And you, what is the most difficult thing for you when you write a novel or a short story? Tell me everything!

See you soon.

I'm over with the chapter 11!

Hi guys!

Good news for me. I'm finished with the eleventh chapter of my novel! I thought this day would never come.

This chapter is not the longgest one, but is some sort of turning point. Now my main character is facing some things she'd rather ignore. It's not that easy for her!

So now, I have to keep the same intensity for the chapter twelve. I'm not afraid for the first quarter of the chapter, but later I wonder if things won't be a little too... too much considering the light tone of the story. Fortunately, first drafts are made to make mistakes. Nothing is permanent.

And you, what are you working on? I'm curious. ;)

First Post, First Words

Hi guys!

Here is my first post on my brand new blog. Somehow, it's both weird and awesome. Why?

Because I'm working on a YA contemporary book - it's closer to the end than the beginning - and I'm not used to talk about it. But here I am.

So, a little word about my current project?

In few words: rock, band, romance, conflicts, family, triangle, love/hate, friendships, gigs, stepbrother, music and high school.

My story is mostly centered on the relationships between the characters. It's fun to write and I hope that someday you'll find it fun to read too.

I already wrote a little over 60 000 words and I plan to have a first draft of about 90 000 words. I hope to finish it before the end of October.

If you want to know more, I'll post a little blurb and even a little excerpt soon. I'm also eager to answer your questions and ''talk'' about music and books.

See you soon guys !